Sa gantong mga oras ko nararamdaman ang ng mga bagay na magpapalaklak sakin ng realidad. Graduate na kami. ang masaklap na bagay dun. halos nagsisimula pa lang mabuo ang mga friendship at mga magagandang bagay na nangyayari samin. Halos hindi pa kami handa sa sinasabi nilang real world. Ang sakit lang isipin na kahit hindi mo tanggap, kailangan mong harapin. Ayoko pa sanang lumisan. Kung pwede lang. Ayoko pa sanang tapusin lahat ng to. I’ve never imagined I would be like this for the longest time. Pero talagang mamimiss ko sila. Kahit ano pang mga nangyari samin, halos magkakapatid na kami, tapos yung ibang section, pinsan namin. Ang sarap sa feeling na maglakad sa hallway tapos lahat ng makakakita sa’yo mag ha-hi or mag aapproach. Bakit kailangan tapusin ngayon? Sadyang ang bilis lang ng panahon.
Because you know I’ll always come back to you. You have this power over me that makes me want to be with you again no matter how much pain I’ve felt or no matter how chaotic things may get. You know how to keep me running back to you. And because of this I forgot what I deserve. I totally lost myself because I kept giving it to you. That is why I am trying so hard to walk away. I am trying so hard to unlove you. But every time I gain progress, there you are pulling me back to you. In just a snap of a finger, I’ll go back to you, welcoming you with open arms, ready to get hurt for the nth time. And I hate myself for that. I wish I could just let go completely but I can’t keep asking for more of you. I can’t stop waiting for you.
Maybe that’s my worst habit: going back to you, getting hurt but asking for more, loving you still. And I wonder when will I ever get tired for real before I finally stop for real.
Una sa lahat, masarap mag-aral kung gusto mo yung ginagawa mo at kung masaya yung environment mo, nasayo lang talaga kung pano tatakbo yung college mo, in my case, sobra, sobrang sarap mag-aral dun.